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Happy Birthday Carol!

Happy Birthday CAROL!

How lucky I am to have known someone who was so hard to say goodbye to.

on my way home

The US and I share this love-hate relationship ever since I was a kid. Until that time when I was 19 where we had this major fight that I decided this could never work out. I was denied of a tourist visa.

I tried to move on and got over that incident. But I guess I wasn’t able to do so completely. I hated people who think that going here would be the end of all their misery. Don’t get me wrong. I’m happy for those who come here but the attitude of some is what kinda pisses me off. I vowed never to set foot on that so-called land of milk and honey. I was bitter. Hahaha!

Two month ago though, as most of you have read in my previous blogs, I was offered by my company to go to the US for a series of trainings for a couple of weeks. Actually, I was ordered to go! (haha! Kidding) I didn’t know what to think or feel at that time. I suddenly remembered my relationship with the US. Now I know what to feel. I was hesitant of course. Oh no way. I’m not willing to go through that emotional roller coaster ride again. I was rejected once and I will never allow that to happen again. But then there was something inside me that was pushing me to go. I’ve heard a lot of stories from my friends. And most of them really do have a nice time everytime they go there. Plus, it’s not like I have a choice or something right? This is work you know. So there I was, the obedient child that I am, went through everything again. And argh it was awful! It was everything I had expeted it to be, except that this time I was allowed to visit under a business visa. I started to get excited after that. Excited and scared because I’m gonna be alone. This is my first to visit the US. Heck, my first time to go out of the country!

Well anyway, today is my last day and I was looking outside my hotel window feeling quite nostalgic. I can’t help but admit to myself how much I’ll be missing this place. It is not at all difficult to fall in love with this country. And I can’t blame those people who act as if they’ve been here all their lives when they’ve only been here for a month or two. I cannot even criticize anymore those people who would spend their whole lives in Manila planning and working to go here. It is indeed a nice place to start a family. You don’t have to be filthy rich to enjoy life. You can live comfortably as long as you have a job.
Yes, I would definitely want to go back. Any relationship has its ups and downs. And my relationship with the US is currently on its high. =)

05.09.06

Grabe I haven't been blogging na naman. Sobrang katamad. It's not that I'm living a boring life because I'm not. Ewan. It's just that my mind is kinda out of synch lately just like the countless data issues I've been working on lately. My desire to blog is not meeting with the ability of my mind to organize my thoughts. Ganyan ako high school pa lang in my Creative Writing/Journalism class. I would often get remarks on how disorganized my thoughts were. Now naman I've been getting remarks on my emails being too long and wordy. Hay. I think I'm really more of a talker than a writer. So what I will do now is post my digits and schedule so you can just call me if you need updates on what's going on in my life. Haha! Kidding!

Actually I know I wrote something on my way home from Peoria but I think I lost it. Oh I know! I saved it in the laptop I used when I went there. I'll be posting it one of these days na lang sa wait for it.

US Day 3

Jet lag occurs when the body's biological clock is out of sync with local time. When traveling to a new time zone, our bodies are slow to adjust and remain on their original biological schedule for several days. The result is that we feel excessively sleepy during the day or wide awake at night.

I am experiencing a bad case of jet lag. It seems I have all the possible symptoms, insomnia, daytime fatigue, stomachaches, headaches, irritability, and decreased awareness. Argh I only have two weeks here and I want to enjoy it sana inpspite of work but this jet lag is killing me. I am awake at 3 in the morning and very tired and sleepy in the afternoon. Good thing the training is scheduled from 8 - 11 am. At least I'm awake at the most important part of the day. Naks! Important?! parang totoo. hehe!

Somnorexia is not getting enough sleep for several days or even weeks in a row; then crashing and sleeping for long periods of time... hmmm 'looking forward to that long sleep. =)

Happy Birthday Liza!

Happy Birthday Sisterette!

“I'd like to be the sort of friend that you have been to me,

I'd like to be the help that you've been always glad to be;

I'd like to mean as much to you each minute of the day,

as you have meant old friend of mine, to me along the way.”

Jamailee's birthday

Happy Birthday BES! =)

“Even though we've changed

and we're all finding our own place in the world,

we all know that when the tears fall

or the smile spreads across our face,

we'll come to each other

because no matter where this crazy world takes us,

nothing will ever change so much

to the point where we're not all still friends.”

hanggang kailan

Hanggang Kailan
Orange and Lemons


Labis na naiinip
Nayayamot sa bawat saglit
Kapag naaalala ka
Wala naman akong magawa...


Umuwi ka na baby
Di na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap hanap kita...


Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama kang muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng Paghihirap
At tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha at
Naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi...


Di mapigilang mag-isip
O baka sa tagal
Mahulog ang loob mo sa iba
Nakaka balisa
Knock on wood wag naman sana...


Umuwi ka na baby
Di na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap hanap kita...


Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama kang muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng Paghihirap
At tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
Naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi...

i miss you na agad =(

highly recommended 2

Highly Recommended:

TRISTAN AND ISOLDE

The story is about forbidden love. It was like Romeo and Juliet in a different era and setting. For me though the highlight of the movie is not Tristan and Isolde's love story but more on Mark's love for Tristan. Kinda "brokebakish" you might think but it's not. Hehe! I don't want to reveal anything here because I'm sure some of you haven't seen it. But, I really love their relationship. The love and care was so real I can almost feel it. OA! haha! Basta I love it. Plus, James Franco who played Tristan is such a hunk!


SITTI NAVARRO

I love her music! And her voice is so amazingly soothing... well if you're into bossa nova or jazz. Yun lang. =)


CORINE BAILEY RAE

A cross of Macy Gray, India Arie and Norah Jones. what more can you ask for. =)

it's official

It’s official. I’m going to Illinois on the 29th of April to attend a series of meetings and presentations with our client. Uhmm the “meetings” are actually trainings. Do you really expect me to represent my company on a meeting with one of our biggest clients?! Oh come on! Haha! Well it’s kinda disguised as a meeting because it’s easier to get a business visa. The meetings will be from May 1 – 12. I’m not sure yet on how long will I be staying there. Basta I need to be in Peoria on these dates. After that I can go to Chicago na. I’m not sure pa of the annotations on my visa. I might receive it by next week.


Anyway, I feel like I’ve given up so much for this trip so I really want to make the most out of it. The emotional stress it has brought me was really draining. I can’t sleep and sobrang lipad ang utak ko for the past weeks. The US embassy interview fell into my supposed flight to Palawan. I was so willing to give up the US trip mind you but it has caused so much mess already. Finally I gave up the fight and decided on going to the US. I’ll be going there alone so I’m scared and excited na rin at the same time. I’m not sure if I made the right decision pero bahala na si Lord. He’ll take care of me.


As of this moment, my friends are in our house in Palawan with my cousins and Gran while I’m stuck here in Manila with this heat. Argh! Hay I just wish they’ll have fun there and enjoy our place. I’m planning to go na lang next year. So this year I’m going to the US na lang for the summer and probably go to Singapore as soon as I come back. My boyfriend has an on shore assignment also. He’ll be leaving next week for a one month stay in Singapore. Hopefully I can follow him there after the US trip para naman may vacation pa rin kami together.