on my way home

The US and I share this love-hate relationship ever since I was a kid. Until that time when I was 19 where we had this major fight that I decided this could never work out. I was denied of a tourist visa.

I tried to move on and got over that incident. But I guess I wasn’t able to do so completely. I hated people who think that going here would be the end of all their misery. Don’t get me wrong. I’m happy for those who come here but the attitude of some is what kinda pisses me off. I vowed never to set foot on that so-called land of milk and honey. I was bitter. Hahaha!

Two month ago though, as most of you have read in my previous blogs, I was offered by my company to go to the US for a series of trainings for a couple of weeks. Actually, I was ordered to go! (haha! Kidding) I didn’t know what to think or feel at that time. I suddenly remembered my relationship with the US. Now I know what to feel. I was hesitant of course. Oh no way. I’m not willing to go through that emotional roller coaster ride again. I was rejected once and I will never allow that to happen again. But then there was something inside me that was pushing me to go. I’ve heard a lot of stories from my friends. And most of them really do have a nice time everytime they go there. Plus, it’s not like I have a choice or something right? This is work you know. So there I was, the obedient child that I am, went through everything again. And argh it was awful! It was everything I had expeted it to be, except that this time I was allowed to visit under a business visa. I started to get excited after that. Excited and scared because I’m gonna be alone. This is my first to visit the US. Heck, my first time to go out of the country!

Well anyway, today is my last day and I was looking outside my hotel window feeling quite nostalgic. I can’t help but admit to myself how much I’ll be missing this place. It is not at all difficult to fall in love with this country. And I can’t blame those people who act as if they’ve been here all their lives when they’ve only been here for a month or two. I cannot even criticize anymore those people who would spend their whole lives in Manila planning and working to go here. It is indeed a nice place to start a family. You don’t have to be filthy rich to enjoy life. You can live comfortably as long as you have a job.
Yes, I would definitely want to go back. Any relationship has its ups and downs. And my relationship with the US is currently on its high. =)



Grabe I haven't been blogging na naman. Sobrang katamad. It's not that I'm living a boring life because I'm not. Ewan. It's just that my mind is kinda out of synch lately just like the countless data issues I've been working on lately. My desire to blog is not meeting with the ability of my mind to organize my thoughts. Ganyan ako high school pa lang in my Creative Writing/Journalism class. I would often get remarks on how disorganized my thoughts were. Now naman I've been getting remarks on my emails being too long and wordy. Hay. I think I'm really more of a talker than a writer. So what I will do now is post my digits and schedule so you can just call me if you need updates on what's going on in my life. Haha! Kidding!
Actually I know I wrote something on my way home from Peoria but I think I lost it. Oh I know! I saved it in the laptop I used when I went there. I'll be posting it one of these days na lang sa wait for it.

US Day 3

Jet lag occurs when the body's biological clock is out of sync with local time. When traveling to a new time zone, our bodies are slow to adjust and remain on their original biological schedule for several days. The result is that we feel excessively sleepy during the day or wide awake at night.

I am experiencing a bad case of jet lag. It seems I have all the possible symptoms, insomnia, daytime fatigue, stomachaches, headaches, irritability, and decreased awareness. Argh I only have two weeks here and I want to enjoy it sana inpspite of work but this jet lag is killing me. I am awake at 3 in the morning and very tired and sleepy in the afternoon. Good thing the training is scheduled from 8 - 11 am. At least I'm awake at the most important part of the day. Naks! Important?! parang totoo. hehe!

Somnorexia is not getting enough sleep for several days or even weeks in a row; then crashing and sleeping for long periods of time... hmmm 'looking forward to that long sleep. =)

Happy Birthday Liza!

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Happy Birthday Sisterette!

“I'd like to be the sort of friend that you have been to me,
I'd like to be the help that you've been always glad to be;
I'd like to mean as much to you each minute of the day,
as you have meant old friend of mine, to me along the way.”