hardest things

- being questioned when you yourself don't understand
- pretending to be innocent of what you really know about
- trying to FORGET something you know you NEVER will
- debating with yourself- knowing what's wrong and what's right
- growing up
- accepting that some things are not meant to be
- trying to understand when you just can't
- being the last to know about something that concerns you most of all
- realizing that you have been tricked after you've given your whole trust
- realizing that you have taken the most important things for granted
- parting with someone you've just learned to love
- saying sorry when you mean it
- saying what you really feel and explaining where you stand
- knowing what is best yet doing the exact opposite
- bracing yourself for the worst kind of pain... and still hurting so much
- loving someone too much and learning to love the pain that goes with it... that even if you learned to let go of the person... you still go on missing the pain you once felt
- denying to yourself that you're falling... then finally you realize that indeed you have fallen when it's too damn late and you can't get out- knowing deep inside that you love someone yet you can't say it out loud