on getting what you want

Another petiks day but I did a lot of chores and work na this morning so I'm taking a break. I thought of updating my blogs din. I realized this morning na medyo kinakalawang na ang utak ko. Hindi ako sanay sa ganito. I miss studying! (talaga lang ha?!) Pero 'di nga. It's true. I suddenly had an urge to pick up my accounting quizzers and go to starbucks or figaro. Yayks official nerd na nga ata talaga ako. Pero it made me think about something else eh. Bigla ko naisip yung passion of getting what you want and the feeling you'll have after achieving it.

All of us in one point in our lives experienced wanting something that we thought was quite impossible to achieve.Even the richest person in the world would attest to this. There are still things that money can’t buy you know. This makes us all equal at one point. But what makes it different for each one of us is the passion we have for attaining it. Have you ever felt that desire or that longing for somethingthat would make you do things that you don’t usually do?Or have you tried changing the way you see things just to make it at par or at least make your goals reachable?At this point you would be willing to give up everything you’ve been accustomed to and change your whole life just for that one thing.You would be even willing to give up some happiness for you believe that in time a greater happiness can be felt. I’ve been through this twice in my life already and for the same goal or reason.And unfortunately I didn’t get it in those two times also. Yes I felt sad, devastated and I lost every inch of hope in me.It even came to a point that I was in complete shock that I cannot think of what to do next.My mind was blank for a few days and I would often catch myself staring at mid air thinking of what I did wrong or if I would be able to get out of this state I am in.But then it occurred to me that this is only one aspect of my life and there are other things to be concerned about.I remember a statement I’ve read before.“no matter how hurt you are or how broken your heart is, the world would not stop for your grief” With this in mind I started to think of the things that I can be thankful for.I realized that there are people with bigger problems than I have.I started to stand up, dust myself up and face the new day ahead of me.I still don’t have that thing I want but the wisdom I gained while trying to achieve it is far greater and I wouldn’t trade it for anything else.I became a stronger person and I learned that there are some things that are not really meant for you.This experience gave me the humility to accept that there is a superior being above me.It taught me that God may not give me what I want but I must trust Him because His answers are wiser than my prayers. =>